Something from Nehemia

I get something from the morning reflection yesterday

It's about Nehemia, someone who are high enough to make the King personally heard his plea and permit him to go back there to restore it

Like, really, Nehemia actually was not brave enough to even told what his intention are and take the grant from the King as a gift from God

If it is me, if I am the one whose wish are granted by the King, I would think that I AM the factor that made the King grant my request. Afterall, my position is high and so, maybe, the King has been my friend and ally! I would be very proud of myself, not thankful to God for his protection and mercy to lead the King's heart to open up to my request.
It's frustating, right? I am a very arrogant person, I know that. But this is the first time I have ever compare it to the action of a humble person, so the difference is stricking
And I am ashamed of myself, now. I will try more to hand God's glory to God. Weird as it sounds, but that's what I have been doing up to this day, stealing God's glory, claiming it to be my success.

Now I hope I will remember that every success I had, it was God's work in me

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First impression

Today's morning reflection talked about David's first inaguration as the king of Israel. Truthfully, I have read this passages enough that I begin to underestimate and just read it as a pass through.
I mean, yes yes, God could see through people's heart, and we humans usually just see the outer appereances.
However, this time, the message is a bit different; it's "Don't be so sure of your impression of people"

I am usually very sure of my judgement of people. I believe it, and I act on it. Not many could lift my previous judgement to people. I like to classify people and put them in some level or group. And I am rock sure about that.

Even if the people appear to be normal and okay, or even popular, if I said they are bad, then they are bad, and the outer performance is just a decoy

However, I usually do that without any substantial evidences or base.
And well, yeah... It is wrong, isn't it? Even if they prove me wrong I usually didn't care. It's the same if I believe someone is good. If they made some very bad deeds, then its just mistakes.

And sometimes, the people could feel my judgement through my polished act and I feel... Hardened towards them.

So, yeah. What did I knew better about people? Why did I sometimes put a harsh judgement against them?

Mingle With God

Oh Gosh, I hope I spelt 'mingle' correctly. Never thought it is wrong, but who knows?
Alas, what happend, happened already

I made this one blog to document my journey to be closer to God over the year. I am Christian, and I hope I have been a good Christian all along, but not very full of religious-spirit, I love Jesus and Christianity but thought little about church rules, altough I abide them.

Anyway, I really long to be closer to God, it seems nice - and my supervisor advise me to take notes of any of God's messages I received, and I think, might as well made some writings and share it

I hope in the end it will be clear that I am closer to God, and being a better person than I am now